Monday, June 22, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Monday, May 18, 2009
SIXHUNDREDANDSIXTYSIX.....
SIXHUNDRED AND SIXTYSIX DAYS.
Tomorrow will be my Six hundred and sixty sixth day without any drugs or alcohol.
This is the longest I have ever gone since the early 80's and I have come to the conclusion that reality is a trip enough. I realize that I have not only been masking off my own stupidity (or adding to it) but I have been hiding the fact that the worlds citizens are for the most part, pretty fuckin' stupid people. Not all, just most. I have been hiding this fact from myself for the past twenty five years with a combination of high powered chemicals, finest grade natural grown herbal medicine, and copious amounts of man made moonshine.
It was just that, the Whisky (spelled with no e on purpose. study your spirits, You'll know why.) that was my downfall. I found it that the most disturbing. This is most likely the most socially acceptable thing for a grown man to do. Drink Whisky. MEN NEED WHISKY!!! Was often my battle cry upon entering a tavern or saloon. Yet, this Cunning, Baffeling and Powerfull elixer of problem making, did just that. Caused a lot of problems. Not the drugs, the guns,the money, the lavish lifestyle, the blackouts. It was the Whisky. I could lie and say that I was handeling everything ok..but it was not true...
Back to the main point.
People being stupid.
No enough of that, Im sure you all agree, people are stupid.
If you don't agree well, thats because you are stupid.
Now the real main point.
Life without drugs and alcohol.
This is an amazing world we live in, mysterious, exciting, full of life everywhere you look.
It is not a world to hide from with your ass on a barstool for hours a day. It is your world to explore and experience. There are trees everywhere and roads to ride your bicycle on. Dogs that want to be pet, and roses to be smelled. Mueseums with art and languages to be learned. If you think that the world is best experienced through altering your reality, thats your choice. I am here to tell you that after twenty five years of "experiencing" the world like that, it really isnt needed. To see life as it really is, stone cold sober, is fucking amazing.
There is nothing to escape from, no problems, or celebration big enough to drink or use because. Oh... what??? its a Tuesday and you broke your shoelace, ok, I can see the logic in getting wasted for that. But, thats about it.
So tomorrow is Tuesday, May 19th, 2009, the six hundred and sixty sixth day I have gone without drugs and alcohol. If you should break your shoe lace, go out and get fucked up, but if you don't....try not using or drinking for a day, then go for six hundred and sixty five more, then tell me your thoughts on life. Enjoy the ride. Namaste~
Tomorrow will be my Six hundred and sixty sixth day without any drugs or alcohol.
This is the longest I have ever gone since the early 80's and I have come to the conclusion that reality is a trip enough. I realize that I have not only been masking off my own stupidity (or adding to it) but I have been hiding the fact that the worlds citizens are for the most part, pretty fuckin' stupid people. Not all, just most. I have been hiding this fact from myself for the past twenty five years with a combination of high powered chemicals, finest grade natural grown herbal medicine, and copious amounts of man made moonshine.
It was just that, the Whisky (spelled with no e on purpose. study your spirits, You'll know why.) that was my downfall. I found it that the most disturbing. This is most likely the most socially acceptable thing for a grown man to do. Drink Whisky. MEN NEED WHISKY!!! Was often my battle cry upon entering a tavern or saloon. Yet, this Cunning, Baffeling and Powerfull elixer of problem making, did just that. Caused a lot of problems. Not the drugs, the guns,the money, the lavish lifestyle, the blackouts. It was the Whisky. I could lie and say that I was handeling everything ok..but it was not true...
Back to the main point.
People being stupid.
No enough of that, Im sure you all agree, people are stupid.
If you don't agree well, thats because you are stupid.
Now the real main point.
Life without drugs and alcohol.
This is an amazing world we live in, mysterious, exciting, full of life everywhere you look.
It is not a world to hide from with your ass on a barstool for hours a day. It is your world to explore and experience. There are trees everywhere and roads to ride your bicycle on. Dogs that want to be pet, and roses to be smelled. Mueseums with art and languages to be learned. If you think that the world is best experienced through altering your reality, thats your choice. I am here to tell you that after twenty five years of "experiencing" the world like that, it really isnt needed. To see life as it really is, stone cold sober, is fucking amazing.
There is nothing to escape from, no problems, or celebration big enough to drink or use because. Oh... what??? its a Tuesday and you broke your shoelace, ok, I can see the logic in getting wasted for that. But, thats about it.
So tomorrow is Tuesday, May 19th, 2009, the six hundred and sixty sixth day I have gone without drugs and alcohol. If you should break your shoe lace, go out and get fucked up, but if you don't....try not using or drinking for a day, then go for six hundred and sixty five more, then tell me your thoughts on life. Enjoy the ride. Namaste~
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Oaklands fallen Heros.
Prayers to the O.P.D.
Time is going on.
Things seem to return to normal.
To some of us they never will.
The ultimate sacrifice
Four brave men.
You will never be forgotten.
Time is going on.
Things seem to return to normal.
To some of us they never will.
The ultimate sacrifice
Four brave men.
You will never be forgotten.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Have a Crappy New Year.
WOW 2009.
Didja' you even think you were gonna' ever make it here? I always new that Madonna would still be around.
Just take your pills and you'll be fine.
Be one of the mindless masses of consumerism.
What I used to think being unique was, is the exact opposite of what i thought it was. I used to believe that Taking the most drugs, consuming the most alcohol and having the biggest gun (with the most bullets) was the only way to get to heaven. Now I am starting to see.
No drugs and No alcohol, just ninja powers and a small rusty steak knife (or Icepick)...
Two Thousand and Eight was not the best year.
I lost friends and family. I experienced, Grief and Sadness.
I, however I maintained constant sobriety, did not go to Jail or the Hospital.
I DID NOT VOMIT not once, Now that is fucking Amazing.
I moved, deeper in the hood of Oakland.
Gunshots pop and bodies drop. The gutters fill with the blood of the stupid, those young men that believe it is more important "holding down" a patch of dirt, then watching the sun rise. Those whose life involves waking up sick and ingesting more poison to "feel normal" Really fuckin' weird when you think about it. LISTEN TO THE WU.
I drank a lot of coffee in 2008. I have a 03:30 report time tomorrow so I shall summarize:
I hope you all have a Crappy New year. yep that's right CRAPPY new year.
Listen to some smooth Jazz, shop at Target, pay too much for gas, contract an STD, break a finger, get pulled over, whatever it takes to not set your sights too high. Me I'm an optimist, I think two double ought Nine is gonna' be good. I will listen to more obscure German industrial, drink more espresso, and write more poetry. Ahhhhh the life of a 21st century Bohemian. Hope your fixed gear gets a flat. Peace out Dog.
Didja' you even think you were gonna' ever make it here? I always new that Madonna would still be around.
Just take your pills and you'll be fine.
Be one of the mindless masses of consumerism.
What I used to think being unique was, is the exact opposite of what i thought it was. I used to believe that Taking the most drugs, consuming the most alcohol and having the biggest gun (with the most bullets) was the only way to get to heaven. Now I am starting to see.
No drugs and No alcohol, just ninja powers and a small rusty steak knife (or Icepick)...
Two Thousand and Eight was not the best year.
I lost friends and family. I experienced, Grief and Sadness.
I, however I maintained constant sobriety, did not go to Jail or the Hospital.
I DID NOT VOMIT not once, Now that is fucking Amazing.
I moved, deeper in the hood of Oakland.
Gunshots pop and bodies drop. The gutters fill with the blood of the stupid, those young men that believe it is more important "holding down" a patch of dirt, then watching the sun rise. Those whose life involves waking up sick and ingesting more poison to "feel normal" Really fuckin' weird when you think about it. LISTEN TO THE WU.
I drank a lot of coffee in 2008. I have a 03:30 report time tomorrow so I shall summarize:
I hope you all have a Crappy New year. yep that's right CRAPPY new year.
Listen to some smooth Jazz, shop at Target, pay too much for gas, contract an STD, break a finger, get pulled over, whatever it takes to not set your sights too high. Me I'm an optimist, I think two double ought Nine is gonna' be good. I will listen to more obscure German industrial, drink more espresso, and write more poetry. Ahhhhh the life of a 21st century Bohemian. Hope your fixed gear gets a flat. Peace out Dog.
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